Journal Entry: Fri Oct 3, 2014, 10:49 AM
Okay, last journal, I was stressed to the point of wanting to off myself. If you noticed that I was dead silent everywhere, it was because this past week, I was at a crisis center and had no access to electronics (including my iPod and cell phone!) and had time to think. The doctor made it quite clear that she wished she could keep me there longer than a week because of my suicide attempt and asked me to consider an idea that I dreaded thinking about:
For those not in the know, medical withdrawals are pretty much what they sound like: Leaving school for medical reasons, perhaps cancer or in my case, severe depression. Catch is, you have to withdraw from all classes to keep from utterly fucking up your transcript or your grades.
Considering all the hard work I put in to get back to college, leaving it after a month was... not an easy decision. But the fact was, being suicidal after a month of college wasn't a good sign.
Long story short, I agreed and Monday, I have an appointment to start the withdrawal process and Tuesday, I'm going home. And for those who read the journals about my mother, well... let's just say she's become the woman I based Arriya on and not the woman I based Zel on.
TL;DR: College is too hard, leaving before I actually succeed in killing myself.
Listening to: Monsters-Matchbook Romance
Playing: Tomodachi Life, smartphone games